Tonight there is a sense of contentment in the house. There was the usual dramatic entrance indoors at 6 pm, the sun vanishing outdoors. I put on some soft music, and tried (as always) to get the kids to eat, have a bath, do homework and get into bed. Caitlyn seems out of sorts - this has been going on all week. I didn't seem to have to strain and argue as much overall, even with the tantrums considered, and now I am rewarded with the purring of 2 little folk.
We have been adopted several months ago by a male cat, who we have named "Ginger" and call a boy or a girl interchangeably. The cat is not allowed indoors, even though he thinks he should be. Tonight he was yowling outside Caitlyn's window as I read her some stories. He really just wants to be with us. He demands I feed him as loudly as any child. Tony gives him short shrift when he climbs the flysceens with his claws. (Tony in fact complains to me that the cat is contemptuous towards him, to which I always give the same reply: Well, at least its mutual between you 2).
I got a long long procrastinated task done at work today, having arrived at 9:15 after dropping both kids at their locations, and the car at the air con repair shop. The bill is expected to be about half of what I originally feared. I dont like expensive car repairs close to Christmas. I dont like getting to work so late and causing so much attention to myself but there was no avoiding it; and although it is completely understandable as to why I was running late, and I had rung in, I still feel badly about it. Its hard to keep that tension out of my voice initially when arriving at work. But a couple of minutes and I settle down.
Last night I could not settle down to sleep although I was so tired. I was probably overtired. When this insomnia gets really bad, I go cold turkey on the caffiene nad try to exercise. The results are not as good as you'd think. I am struggling to understand what it is that triggers poor sleep - its mostly emotional and I am at a loss often to pinpoint the issue for hours.
Tonight I feel more centered and peaceful - I think it was the money thing that was worrying me about the car. Thoughts of booking our holiday flights and Tony's recent discovery of Ebay were running through my head. I've lit a candle, and will knit the second sleeve of Caitlyn's precious little leaf green peasant shirt tonight. If I dont finish it, I will not pressure myself. There is always tomorrow.
